Prince Harry’s ‘confusion’ at Diana’s funeral as royal ‘shutdown’ during devastating event

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Harry and Meghan have spent almost all of 2020 in the US after they rescinded their royal titles in January. They have since let pregnant Princess Eugenie and Jack Brooksbank live at Frogmore Cottage, although reports suggest the pair have unexpectedly left the cottage and returned to their former lodgings at Kensington Palace. The out-of-the-blue move has led to claims of Harry and Meghan potentially returning in the near future.

Harry has been at odds with The Firm for several years, the most intense fallout coming after he and Meghan admitted they were struggling with royal life during an interview on their tour of South Africa last year.

One of the most candid royals, Harry told of the “festering wound” his mother’s death had left in his life.

And it wasn’t the first time he had spoken out about his mother, having previously disclosed the feelings of almost numbness during Diana’s funeral, in the 2017 documentary, ‘Diana, Our Mother: Her Life and Legacy’.

Here, Harry explained his immediate thoughts and feelings at the farewell ceremony, and said: “I was thinking to myself, how is it that so many people who never met this woman, my mother, can be crying and showing more emotion than I actually am feeling.

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“People deal with grief in different ways, and my way of dealing with it was basically just shutting it out and locking it up.”

Talking separately, Harry’s brother, Prince William, spoke of his own grief surrounding the death, and explained: “It’s like an earthquake that has run through the house.

“It took me a while for it to sink in.”

Reports from the last decade have pointed towards the brothers’ trauma over their mother, in particular Harry.

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Entering his early adult years, Harry became known as the “party prince”.

In 2017 he said that this image and lifestyle he had conjured up for himself was, in fact, a facade to hide the pain of Diana’s death.

Talking to Bryony Gordon, Harry mentioned attacks of both panic and rage, admitting his life was in “total chaos” for two years.

He explained: “I just couldn’t put my finger on it.

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“I just didn’t know what was wrong with me.”

The Prince said he had been “very close to total breakdown on numerous occasions when all sorts of grief and lies and misconceptions are coming to you from every angle”.

He continued: “I can safely say that losing my mum at the age of 12, and therefore shutting down all of my emotions for the last 20 years, has had a quite serious effect on not only my personal life but my work as well.

“I thought that thinking of her was only going to make me sad and not going to bring her back. So from an emotional side, I was, like, ‘Right, don’t ever let your emotions be part of anything.'”

This resulted in him running around during his twenties thinking “life is great, life is fine”.

He said this was the period he was branded “Crazy Harry”.

“And then I started to have a few conversations,” he said in the podcast.

“And actually all of a sudden, all of this grief that I have never processed started to come to the forefront and I was, like, ‘There is actually a lot of stuff here that I need to deal with.'”

Meanwhile, Frogmore Cottage was given to Harry and Meghan as a wedding gift from the Queen in 2018.

They spent around £2.4million of taxpayers money to revamp the property, only to leave it empty after moving to the US.

The pair have since repaid the sum.

“Loaning” the grade II listed building to Eugenie and Jack, the four would essentially share the home, being offered to Harry and Meghan whenever they visited the UK.

According to their office, the cottage will remain the Sussexes “residence in the UK”.

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